I love Holly Madison, and this book really gave an amazing view of what went on behind closed doors. It kind of pieced together the puzzle of the oddities I noticed when watching the show. Kendra really needs to sit down and chill out, because this is Hollys story, and this makes a lot more sense then her version of the tales. I read this cover to cover in about a day. Super addicting. Which really says something, as I am not an avid reader.Holly took enough time out between making this book and leaving the mansion to obviously leave behind the anger and speak only of facts and what she remembers. For those whom have never been in a negative or bad relationship, it is easy to leave the bad memories behind and basically make them not exist in your mind. Some of the book, she either left it out because nobody wants to read the truly graphic details, or if she legit forgot those details, which reinforces how bad it truly was in the Mansion.Yes, she made mistakes, which she owns up to. Just about every 20something can say that they thought it was love when they are asked why they were with someone. You do everything we can to make it work, which she obviously did. I mean, when you have made it this far, what else can you do? There is no shame in that. Sometimes starting over is harder then sticking around. Especially when your relationship is the cornerstone of a major television series, and everyone sees your life as perfection. She was young, stupid, and was in love with the glamour. I would have been as well! I think she did honestly love him. And then when she stepped back and looked at what was around her, she saw so much more. and how she was worth more then he let her believe.For all the posters in here that say "it cant have been that bad, she stuck around for 9 years!"....clearly they are lucky enough to have never been in a negative relationship, an abusive relationship. Leaving is not so easy, because you just don't see things the way they really are. And while I don't think she was financially motivated to be with him, he also made it financially impossible for her to leave. She explains that while the rest of us are thinking 1000 a week is a lot of money, he also made a point to monopolize a lot of that money. She said it wasn't easy for her to even pay off student loans with that amount, let alone save anything enough to get out and find somewhere to go and get a job. If she had too much money in savings, she was expected to go buy more clothes or makeup. And getting that 1000 a week was not always easy. Also, he gave them all vehicles, which they had to give back if they left. Holly had literally nothing but clothes, dogs and makeup, unlike Bridget and Kendra, who all had their own rooms and thus their own stuff. (Remember her pathetic little closet and corner of the room?). So where was she going to go with nothing to drive, nothing to sleep on, and no money to pay for things?I liked how she was very factual and explained everything through, including her thought process. As opposed to just pointing fingers and calling names. I think she owns up to her own issues, which a lot of posters on here say she doesn't. Hef has been quick to refute statements she made, but they really do make sense. I dont think she rewrote history at all. However, I think Criss Angel comes off even worse then Hef did. I think everyone expected that behind closed doors, Hef was an eccentric, perverted weirdo. But Criss came off as the biggest jerk in history, which was new. I had never heard of Criss until Holly came around, and now I would never give him a penny of my money for one of his shows.I find it interesting that Izabellas book and Hollys book do seem to parallel in many ways, whereas Kendras tale is quite different. (hmmm....) So if you are interested in a further read, check out Bunny Tales (I think thats the name of her book).So.... when do we get to hear Bridgets take on life in the mansion? She has wisely kept pretty quiet on the topic, has taken no sides, but also has done a really good job of staying clear of the Playboy name. Which leads me to believe that Kendra is still on payroll, and Bridget probably had a similar experience to Hollys.